I pass!

VT ain't an easy job seriously. Like I mention earlier which I need to multi-task couple of things in 1 time. It's pretty hard thing for me, but as soon as I get used to it, it's just a very simple job to me. I can do it pretty well now. What I can't believe is that my seniors are asking me to look over the others interns. Shocking but rewarding because it also means that they look upon me.

This week my job is to go out and take care of other assignments. Which also means that I will have a lot of opportunities to interact with other people in the field as well as practice my camera skills. The scary part is the post production. Honestly when I see how my seniors edit it, they do it so so well and make me feel like I don't even know how to edit it. I have couple of footage to edit for these few days. I can't afford to lose my focus.

I'm not really feeling well now due to 1 week of hard work total non stop hardcore working from day till midnight. I don't think I'm trying to boast but I think I did a pretty good job. I'm very happy with everything so far. But it also means that I'm going to have more things coming ahead of me. Gotta prepare for it!

Mistakes

Today whole day sticking myself to the editing of my Quickie footage to be used tonight. Everything went very well I did all the recording that we need and stuff but tough luck, I screwed up some part during the live show. I skipped the phone super and due to last minute changes I messed up the whole 2nd segment. I lost track of the time available for 2nd segment and needed help from Akmar and Daniel which I don't really want.

It's not that I could not handle the VT myself, I'm not nervous at all. In fact, I was kinda confident while doing it, but just because of minor mistakes it caused the whole timeline to messed up. So frustrated of myself. Tomorrow (Saturday) and day after tomorrow (Sunday) I'll be doing VT all by myself, I can't afford to do any mistakes and I won't allow myself to repeat my own mistakes. I will do the best that I could and not let my seniors down. If they can do it, I can do it!

Showdown 2011 Season 2

So today we went to ICT, Shah Alam for the live Showdown 2011 Season 2. Honestly I must say that the atmosphere there is way much better than what you saw in TV. It's very dull all I can say. 1 day you should push yourself here and get hold of it.

Hafiz is really really busy hosting the show, why? Because he have to control the crowd, memorizing his lines, focus on camera, interacting with the contestants while directors giving him orders what to ask, say and tell through his ear piece. Awesome eh? This is what I call it as super multitasking!

Here is our judges, I'm sitting pretty far away from them and lazy to walk to them and snap a picture. I prefer to watch the dance. LOL!

Here is 1 of the camera on the set behind the crowds to shoot some awesome footage for you guys. It's not an easy job. They are always on call by the directors in control room on how they should shoot it. NON STOP.

I didn't get to shoot all of the contestants dancing because the lighting was really gloomy and over exposed at times. This is all I can get!

Hafiz is talking to the dance crew while panel of judges is giving comments about their dance steps.

Now this is how it looks like at the control room. We got directors, producers, MCR, MCP, VT, Lighting man, Audio man, etc. Trust me that you don't want to be inside here. The director and producer will be yelling non stop at all times! 

Showdown had a little fight among the contestants this week. EPIC! I love the fights because it is a reality show, fights are unavoidable. That's all I can bring to you today! Stay tuned for more awesome updates! I will be in charge of VT playbacks and live tomorrow! God bless my soul!

I said I'll fight back

Day 2, working in office today is really really easy. I came to the office around 830 to clean up the desk and tables and prepare for the day. I didn't know how fun it is till me, Paul and Chelsea were assigned to follow Jessica and Andrea to do our assignments. Why? Because I was thinking that it will just be another story to cover, talking to the organizer and shoot some videos, but I was so so wrong!

So when we reached the place in KL for the press conference, we registered ourselves as 8tv crew's intern and they gave us 2 packs of freebies consist of facial masks, a very nice key chain, Korea tour guide book, 4GB pen drive and lots of it. I was quite happy for that until we were treated with an awesome Japanese lunch by Executive Director (Gavin). He's a passionate, friendly and visionary guy, I admire him really really much. Hopefully someday he will see the market of Metal and Hard Rock music in Malaysia someday and try hard to push us out!

Yesterday I was badly beaten up by VT's job scoop. For me it's way too much to handle in little time. But today I spent hours and hours sitting in front of the ingest room with my senior Akmar role playing on how to run the system. I didn't fully master it yet but at least I got it around 30%. I know I'm a slow learner and I really need a lot of practice to make it perfect. I have another 1 or 2 days to practice before throwing me alone with the systems.

I said I'll fight back even it'll take everything that I had. But I'll never give up. I know I will get screw by my seniors these 1 or 2 days because of mistakes, but without mistakes I will never have a chance to know where I went wrong and overcome it. I just have to straight up, stand still and prepare for the bullet. I'll take it like a man.

Tomorrow I'm going to be at Showdown 2011 @ ICT, Shah Alam. It's WAR!

1st day of work

Yesterday night I was really pump up and excited on how's my internship is going to be. I was so excited that I couldn't get some proper rest. So how was my 1st day at work?

Today I got my 1st duty arrange by my boss, as a VT. Video Tape Operator. It doesn't sounds like a big shot job isn't it? But trust me, I was thinking that too until I got to know what is the real job that VT need to do. I need to compile all the commercials, bumpers, text and prepare to air it online, a time keeper, a middle man between director and conty, editing and then backup. That's my job scoop!

Now it sounds like some serious job? I can't afford to have blank screen air on nationwide and no mistake must be made since it's live! Meaning, I need to be super alert on set and no mistake it allow. Not even a little bit! Stress? Yes!

And so the pressure and stress rose up like a wave rushing over me, it will either break me or strengthen me in the future, how's it going to be? I asked myself this question throughout the whole day believe me! Not a single moment I never stop thinking of quiting or asking for another position. But I know it's for my own good, I need to get over with this hardship!

All my seniors come to congratulate me because I get the toughest job scoop there is in 8tv Quickie production team. They said if I get through this, the other jobs means nothing to me. Believe me when I say, it's easier to be said than done. Am I crushed? Yes. Am I giving up? No.

I believe that God is with me, no matter what's coming ahead of me, I know that God will have my back because He said that I'm the head and not the tail, I'm above and not beneath. God keep blessing me with knowledge and wisdom to overcome this. I really need You!

Excited and nervous

I'm so excited and nervous at the same time, why? Because tomorrow it's my 1st day at work. I'm not worried at all because I know I'll do perfectly well there. But because I'm too excited I can't sleep right now.


I had plan everything that I need to do tomorrow from morning till night but I still get so nervous. Hoping for the best to come tomorrow!


Gonna find something to do now~

I just don't understand her

I find her quite funny, she read my status and comment about it, and then when I talk back and she gotten not happy bout it. It's fine to me, but then I delete all the comment and she gotten mad at me. Is it wrong deleting comments? I really don't know that's something like that. Pfft.

No matter what is it, it's so wrong to insult other people. I thought after so long, after all the hassle and dramas we could go on with our lives perfectly. But I guess it's just my own thinking, because she's not showing it. Whenever I be a little bit aggressive and she get so upset bout it, but when she does the same thing she never realize it. Sigh.

Said to be friends again, shake our hands and move on, but in fact she don't. What I did I get myself into. Oh God.

Giggles

Do you still remember back in the days when you had a crush on someone so strong that you can't stay a second not looking at his/her picture? I still remember this girl that I had a crush on her back in the days where I was still naive, young and innocent.

I still remember this girl back in the days where I decided to stay at my buddy's house for couple of days spending time with him and do all sort of stupid things that we thought of. Later do I know that his sister brought back a friend to stay at her house too and there we spent some time together. Everything seems like it's planned by God.

We did a lot of stuff together, going to different places to have our breakfast, lunch and dinner, archery, indian street (Ipoh), chat, etc... Memories! It feels like yesterday!

I just knew her for about a day or two and I find myself having a crush on her, I felt stupid but I choose to go along with it because I seriously like her a lot. I try to stay around her sight hoping that she would notice my presence and would talk to me, stick around with her so to make her feel that I'm someone that she could rely on, be mature and try my best to protect her where ever we go.

I remember every little thing that happen during the time, and we took sticker photo together with my buddy and her. Back then my life seems to be really full of hope and love!

We went to Indian street in Ipoh while she hope to look for a nice Sari, and my buddy and her sister went to see some other stuff and so I have to stay outside her changing room (just a thin layer of cloth) to prevent people peek on her. Just for your information, I did not peek too, because to me I feel that if you like a girl really much you would do everything that you can to protect her, not harm, degrade or hurt her.

After she changed and when she came out from the changing room, I was stunned and impressed. I never saw anything so beautiful and pretty like her. I can't take my eyes off her at the time. She asked, how do I look? I just replied "Beautiful".

The best thing that ever happened to me back then is when she hold on to my arms and walk together, there she asked me "would you be my boyfriend for the day?" I was so surprised and happy at the same time! I told her "Yes of course, why not?" In my heart, I hope that this day will never end. I wish to be boyfriend for tomorrow, day after tomorrow and forever.

Time passes really fast, she have to go back to her University and I have to returned back to my house. There we stopped contacting each other. (I was too young to owned a phone, no friendster, msn, facebook back then.) Because of no way for me to contact her, I decided to put the memories into my heart locked it and keep it aside. Soon I met Ivy and the box left unattended.

Lately when I clean my room, then I remember her. She had grown much pretty than I remember! Praise the Lord for His mighty work. God's creation indeed is beautiful and perfect! I added her on facebook but she haven't approved it and I can't find a way to chat with her. I doubt that she actually remembers me. Hopefully she will and we can keep in touch again. I really miss her. ^^

Grandpa Birthday!

Today is my grandpa birthday! I don't really know how old is he because nobody tells me that, but I'm sure that he is really old but still in a good shape! More birthday in the future for him!

My uncle and grandpa! My grandpa don't really take much photo with us somehow. Maybe nobody actually ask for a picture with him. I wanted to snap a picture with him, but they were too busy chatting and stuff. Maybe next time!

And so we head to Marpoh Chinese restaurant in Ipoh garden. The food there is so so to me, not really something special but it's just OK. The dinner doesn't really matters, the celebration is.

Dish no.1

Dish no.2

Dish no.3

Dish no.4

We actually ordered 7 dishes, but since everyone is so hungry, I didn't get a chance to snap picture of the food and they already start eating. ^^

After the dinner we go back to grandpa house to have his cake cut! It's not any ordinary cake that we buy from bakery shop, my aunty decide to bake it herself. Meaningful!

My grandpa and his cake! God bless my grandpa!

Memories

Mommy have been bugging me for the past few days to clean up my wardrobe so she can fully utilize it when I'm not around. Well most probably I'm not around that's why she want to use that to put her clothes. After couple of days getting nag and so I decided to clean it up, it was the best moment ever!


Why? Because I found all those memories that was so precious to me! I enjoy each moment of it and I miss it I must say.

Lion King T-shirt! I remember when I was young I love it tons, but it's so old the shirt even turn slightly yellowish. It's so small!

My Jurassic Park shirt! I miss it! Me and my brothers love Jurassic park so much and we decided to get it and we also bought the toys for it! Not 1 or 2 but a whole bag full of it. Unfortunately the toys are gone as time passes by. Aww....

All these medals are what I accomplished during my high school days! I know it's not that much but it's all that I have! Basketball, high jump, football and running. Ever since I graduated, I never win any medals. Hm.

Lompat Tinggi Ting. 4 & 5, JOHAN! Lol! Seriously I was 2 times champion in a row and nobody in school manage to overtake me, that's how high I can jump! Too bad Ting. 3 I didn't manage to join because I'm sick! Or else 3 years in a row! Undisputed! 

Sam Tet wanted me to join MSSPK, and I did, I got my ass kicked damn bad! LOL!

We are the champion my friend, we keep on fighting till the end!

Do you know whose autograph is this? SLIPKNOT, brothers! I was there 2005 Slipknot Asia Tour! Me and couple of my buddies rushed to Singapore to meet them, and lucky we are, we got to meet them face to face! It was awesome!!!!!! Joey Jordison is so petite! I feel like hugging him so so much! He is about 1'6 I guess. Clown and Chris was big, they are like giant and we are like midgets to them! And yeah, we sneak into backstage and saw them unmasked! Teehee! What a trip!

This bottle full of stars is not an ordinary bottle to me. When I was dating Ivy, she decided to fold a thousands stars by herself because she told me that self fold stars it's very meaningful and you may wish upon the stars so that your dreams may come true. Even till now, the feeling is so sweet in my heart even though we didn't end up together now but still I wish the best for her in life. ^^

Oh yeah, she told me that there's a message in each of the stars that she folded! I was so impressed! But I'm not willing to open the stars to see her message because I don't know how to fold it back and it will be different from the original. So I will keep it as a mystery till the day I enter the grave.

Oh My God! I can't believe I found this picture! Do I look like Nobita? I seriously think that I look like him! if I'm not mistaken, I should be around 13 years old, I can't even wear the tie properly. LOL. Memories~ 

Regardless of the memories are sweet or sour, it will forever be memories inside our heart. I really miss those days where I can act recklessly, irresponsible and according to how I felt. But time changed, I changed too. Whatever happen in the past will always be a part of me. I certainly miss it.

Kampai @ Ipoh

Just had a great dinner at Kampai at Ipoh. Even though the restaurant located at the best place possible, but still because of the food is nice, people will not hesitate to go there for dinner. This restaurant was established back in the 90s and it's still amazing!

Picture taken from wikistreetfood.com

It's quite a nice place to have dinner. The interior is comfortable and stylish. Definitely a place that's great for hanging out.

This is a beef bento set. It cost almost around RM30 per set, included salad, miso soup and desert. Totally worth it.

On the left is chicken bento set.

This is a sashimi set, I don't know what is the fish but it certainly taste awesome. It cost around RM39.95.

Do you wear a mask

Spending the past few years busy making with friends willingly and unwillingly, some I called it as friend and some I called it as "friend". We live in this society where human can't live alone, we must go out to make friends and find a companion but the truth is, the world is dangerous.

I don't know about you, but I was born in a small village back then where all the kids come together cycling, badminton, lepak and do everything together. We are decent and innocent. We never have any agenda or motive when we make friends simply because it's fun. As I grow up, I start to realized that not everyone  share the same concept as I do.

College was the time that really changed my mindset towards friendship. Whenever I meet any new friend, I would gave out my heart for them but how many of them would actually appreciate it? Not much. During college, I met people to use each other, ignorance people, annoying people and little bit of nice people. Behind all of them, they actually wear an invincible mask.

This invincible mask is horrifying! They cover up themselves really good I must say. Some may act really good in front of you and back-stabbed you while you don't even notice it. And some when they accomplished what they need from you, they'll kick you out from their sight. Common.

What I learnt these few years, never trust anyone easily until you know that person inside out. Never simply pour out your feelings, complains, anger and opinion because it will be used against you. Be smart!

But of course there will be someone decent enough to cover your back when you in need. Those are your buddy or bff. Hold onto them tightly, you don't want to lose it. It's so precious that you will regret in the future!

To those fakers, just remember to talk crap and play along with them because nothing comes out from their mouth is real. It's like keeping a rat in your house knowing that it will eat your food.

Be careful

I enjoy writing my blog because that's my personal space to express my thoughts and feelings, however since everyone got a chance to read what you had in mind, some may like it some may not. Those who like it will stay and for those who dislike it, they will use it against you.

Again, somebody come up to me and told me that somebody is not happy with what I wrote on my blog and they mind about it, they are unhappy of it. Do I seriously care? Obviously not. What I wrote is all on my personal perspective, how I look the issues. But sometimes people have to mind about all these and they got offended and post shoutout. Is that necessary?

Like I said, it's all my perspective, if you can't take it then probably you shouldn't read it. What's with all the dramas? By the way, I do not like to create topic that does not exist. Everything I said it here is based on what I saw, encounter and experienced. Grow up and take critics like a man.

Single and available

My aunty and uncle is back from Shah Alam, the most asked question is going to be "where's your gf?" Oh man, I hate it when people always ask me this question. But yeah, I'm single and available. I'm only 24 this year, not really that desperate to have a partner although my mom said that if I'm lucky enough, I would be a daddy by now.

I hope that none of my aunty and uncle would ever think of arranging blind date for me. It would really be embarrassing I think especially for youngster nowadays. But since my family is so modern, I bet they won't. Haha. At least I hope they won't.

To me, relationship emphasize a lot a lot on feelings for that person, not just like or love, it's more than that. At times, I feel that relationship works very very funny. When you actually like a person, it always turn out that he/she is no interested at you, no matter how many efforts and hard works it means nothing to her. Better off just stay back.

But, by the moment that you wish that you were never wanted to know this person, then he/she would come to you and very close to you and ultimately gives you a wrong indication, and you will screw things up. Boy girls relationship is very much about the timing and the right person. Have you found the right one? Me certainly not, because they won't give me a chance. LOL. Too bad.

I guess I won't scrap the title "Single" till I'm 26 or after that. I focus on myself pretty much, I worry that I do not have enough time for her and another person come in the picture and the past will repeat. I hate it.

I guess to be my partner, she have to be very reasonable and understanding. Asian? Westerner? I have no idea, let it flow. Whoever it is, let it be the right one!

Underoath gone Illuminati?

I'm not a big fan of Underoath, I like their music but not so much. In late 2010, they release their "Disambiguation" and I think their music is not bad. But I got shocked after they officially release MV for "Paper Lung" because it's full of element of Illuminati.

Why I am disturbed? Underoath is well known for their Christian Metal Band background and all of their music is meaningful and it's very inspiring. But why Illuminati? Illuminati got Underoath?

http://underthegunreview.net/2011/04/30/underoath-and-director-deny-affiliation-with-illuminati/

Read the article to find out what they think.

The band members thinks that it's cool to have those symbols and so they tag along. What?! Cool and tag along? Don't they know what it means? How could a Christian Metal Band tag along with Illuminati? I just don't get it. Is it another kind of promotion for Underoath? Too much question to ponder, too less answer were given.

At least the fans did oppose to it and were unhappy with them, but still Underoath decide to go on what they are doing. Currently their having "IlluminaTour" kinda disturbing to me. But that's what they want and how they want it to be, wish them good luck.

Underoath won't be the same again.

Great dinner

Coming back to Ipoh is the best time for me to have great great food! Eat like nobody business and just chill!

Before I start to eat, man I can literally feel my stomach is growling and telling me that it's time to feast! This place is somewhere around Tasek, it's a new branch there and according to my mom, the food is nice, so we went there!

Ta-Da! We ordered 6 dishes in total! We had pork, chicken, veges and tofu! I can't use any nice word to describe it, bottom line, the food was awesome! Ipoh! Woots!

Look at the meat! It's so juicy and tender! Muaks! Finger lickin' good!

We finish everything in half an hour time, quite fast for so many dishes! I love it!

Birthday update

Last week was my birthday, it was a good one in my opinion. Everything went perfect, received gift from my beloved cell group members. I wanted to spend money to buy a badminton shoe for myself and they decided to bless me the amount. I'm really really glad and appreciate my cell group members. You guys are the best.

So during the celebration, the core members took me and May Shen to Zan Mai @ Sunway Pyramid for dinner, it was a nice one because they know that both of us love sushi a lot. To me that was the perfect gift for both of us.

This envelope was draw by Jun. I always love her drawing of text! It's simply amazing. Love it tons! She drew for many of us in each members birthday but still I never get sick of watching it. It's so captivating!

And here's the RM100 from my members. Thanks guys!

To make everything OK, I would love to take this opportunity to thanks Chelsea, Jun and Carmen sacrificing their time and effort to make all these work even though they are all having final year project or final examinations. I appreciate it a lot. And of course my other members in cell group who celebrated my birthday and heart touching speech. Hope to spend more time with you all in future!

Ipoh Mali

Finally I in Ipoh! Yesterday I was really tired while hop on the train. The next moment I fell asleep till I reached Kampar station.

My Ticket

The sun was hot and the weather is crazy, but the air conditioning in the train was awesome! In fact, it gave me chill at times. Wonderful moment there!

See the girl at the side of the window? I can't believe my eyes when she 1st step into the train at Kampar Station. Why? Because she look the same with Ivy. Tanned, wear the same specs, having the same look, I was stunned and I can't keep my eyes off her! I was so amazed that there's 2 person in this world that look the same! Oh, by the way, Ivy is my ex. ^^

I don't look that good and active at all. Was feeling very tired actually. Thanks to my half breakdown phone, I can't take much photo. And of course the quality is not good at all, it's just a 3.2 mega-pixels sony cyber shot phone. ^^ 

Whisper To Hannah recording

Yesterday morning I went to play badminton with friends at 11am till 1pm, it's very rewarding because finally I get to exercise and not staying at home do nothing but just surf internet that's all. So once I woke up I rushed to the badminton court and play with them. I don't think I should get a better racket anymore since I'm not doing professional. I rather ask my dad to buy me a phone, at least a 2nd hand used phone. Better than nothing!

My producer & co-producer

During the afternoon where my producer & co-producer Abang Dani & Joey. (Joey is going to sing for this song.) They spent 2 hours of mixing the drums while Dan's computer kept giving us problems. Suddenly the audio can't be detected or things like that. And the best part is... TNB (Tenaga National) is giving us big shit, suddenly the electricity was cut off and so we head for a drink.

See the interface? EZ drummer and Abelton. Dan love to use Ableton to do his recordings. Of course it's not as good as logic pro, but he said he will buy it soon enough, let's look forward to it! 

Joey, Tommy & Dan

It's actually 5am! And we are still editing the sound! Oh yeah, let me introduce Tommy, he is my another producer, I called him as dubstep master, there's 1 part of this song is going to be dub and just wait for this dub master to finish his master piece! I can't wait for it!

And, while they were busy doing all the mixing and mastering here and there, I actually felt asleep! LOL! At the end of the day, Abang Dani got flu and drop sick before I head back. This is going to be a great song because all of us throw great great efforts on it!

I will upload the song as soon as it's complete! Just bear with us!

Paint

Moving in my new room next 2 weeks! So far I did a rough paint job at my new house, and it's green! Suddenly I feel like painting it green because it's refreshing and probably, good for eyes (according to my friend). I did not get to take any picture before I paint the room, well it's peach so nothing special about it.

As far as I'm concern, painting is really a tough tough job! I respect those who earn a living by painting people's house! Personally I don't like it, but I feel accomplished when everything is done!

Entrance of my room

Inside my room

TA-DA! Isn't it nice! The color is apple/honeydew green. I'm actually hoping for something more darker green and they called it Rasta Green. Well I'll head back to paint the 2nd layer next few days and it's going to be perfect!

As you can see, my hand turns green as well, all covered in paint, my pants as well! Luckily enough this is a high graded paint, I can just wash away the paint with water! It's Dulux Pearl by the way! Good stuff! Highly recommended!

And puppy bite my slippers today! Ish! The side is half torn now! Feel like smacking the fella!